Personality adjustment

I know your not supposed to say things like this but i don't really care. i have actually hated my first year at uni, it is too hard to be away from home (most importantly my cats) i share a flat with the most vile people on this planet and due to the dire state of the kitchen i never go in there, i feel unbelievably lonely all the time and even my so called friends seem to think its ok to just leave me by myself permantly, i would like to think that if i had a friend in the same situation that i would invite them over or go over to them instead of constantly blow them off. Being blown off is something i must have stamped on my forehead, ever since i was little people have always seemed to think its ok to just leave me on my own, not include me or just generally forget i exist even when i organise people don't want to come, and i have no idea what it is that i'm putting out there to put people of me so much.

i got told today that people dont want to revise with me because i know too much and it panicks them, that's great but i dont feel confident why the hell do people constantly think im ok when im not. this isn't what i need to be thinking about the night before an exam. i don't know what to do with myself anymore. clearly i need to adjust my personality i just don't know how. I have 10 days of sitting in my uni room all by myself, with a skype call a day to my parents while i constantly ask people if they want to come over or go out just to be told they already have plans. i'm fed up of it, but it must be something i'm doing because literally the whole world does it to me. I don't generally think of myself as a push over like i will tell people if i have a problem but people still seem fit to walk all over me or more to the point pretend i don't exist.

feeling majorly blue right now. I also want to add that i have an exam tomorrow instead of revising i have just sat around and moped. i don't know anything for this stupid exam and I know im going to fail, the work is just too boring to stay in my head, and its going to be 3 hours tomorrow of not having the foggiest idea what to write. and then after that a whole 10 days of lonliness.